DETACHMENT

So mentally, I have been in a funny place lately. Common themes continue to resurface as my mind tries to grab hold of them. One that has persisted over the last few weeks has been the idea that if we detach ourselves from the fruit of our actions, we will be more at peace with what we do in any given day, any given circumstance. I first encountered this theme while reading Eckhart Tolle's "A New Earth" and then I saw it again while reading Gretchen Rubin's "The Happiness Project" and to complete the tri-fecta, my yoga instructor's message last night was just that...be free of attachment to the fruit of your actions.

Now this can be applied to a variety of things, but I found myself applying it to how I constantly have expectations of how things will go and when they do not happen, I am literally thrown into a downward spiral of emotions. The worst part is that I am usually unaware that those expectations exist until i realize that what I wanted to happen did not happen and that is why I am feeling negative, impatient, frustrated.

If I can only develop a habit where I can comfort myself and say "It's OK Beck! you can try your best, but in the end what happens doesn't really matter." Hmm not sure if that is comfort or if that is throwing me on my head, but I do believe if that I can go through a given day, telling myself, "It's OK!" when my two year old has to walk around all morning with wet shorts because you forgot (in my mind I am saying "you should have")to pack a spare pair in case of a pee accident. Or "It's OK!" when I've slaved in the kitchen to have one or both of my boys throw their food on the floor and think it is so hysterical. Or if I can just say "It's OK because you've done your best and what happens happens."

I'll work on it!